advice...

don't.........i repeat don't ask me what i think you should do because i won't make that decision for you...........

the maker has bestowed you with the power of "freewill" to make your own choices so i am not going to say to you okay do this........... because that is just a pointless automatous existence .................

instead i will simply say "okay if you do this this might happen but if you do that then that might happen and simply leave you to evaluate which scenario you wish to bring into reality into your life...............

its called learning from experience..........if it goes horribly wrong then never take advice from me again but hopefully you did learn something and if it goes right then don't thank me because really deep down we all know the answer to our little problems but we just need someone there to just say it to our faces (just think of that scene in matrix where he knocks over that vase in the kitchen) ................

and no don't compare me to the oracle because i too need to ask ppl for advice...............and i am not all seing all hearing..................

i am just an idiot.............which suits me fine because idiots are not expected to accomplish anything and gives me the opportunity to just behave as stupid and as childish as i want.................(which is a most of the time) and when i mean childsih i don't mean immature whereby i go out and get blind-drunk that i decrease my life expectancy by killing all the cells in my liver so that toxins build up (actually on that note i should say that i don't actually drink alcohol but for some reason everyone thinks i'm the one that is drunk because of my mad nature and i should also add that i don't discourage ppl to give up drinking too because all the ppl i know are responsible enough to know their own limit...... so if you do think the word "moderation").....................my sort of childish behaviour is that similar to that of a childs whereby its just harmless play (okej i admit playing with swords is not all harmless but don't worri i am a professional ninja........as soon as i pass my exams)................

hmmm i guess i should end this with some real words of wisdom so here goes.......
ahem......

sometimes it is easier to run and hide, to stay silent and to disguise your true self in hope that you will fit the mode created for normal society.......

but in truth you cannot keep running and you cannot deny the gifts that you have been given............

if you waste them, then you are wasting the life that you have been blessed with.........

and it is such a shame because though we may think our lives are comparably worse than others, it is often forgotten that we have much more fortunate lives than many more..........

if you have all your limbs and all your senses and your mind is as memorable as your youth, and if you have someone in your life that cares what you do where you are doing it, then you are rich, for riches need not be material possessions............

wealth can be measured by how much happiness you have............

the wonderful thing about this kind of wealth is that sharing this treasure just increases the amount you already possess..............

"not all that glistens is gold, not all that is gold is treasure , not all that is treasure is hidden"

not everything seems as it is at first sight, so take time to discover the hidden layers beneath, you may find beauty is what lurks there or you may uncover truth, that what is perceived as perfect is in fact a lie, for it is always better to know an honest enemy than to rely on a false friend............

(and breathe...............)

well those are the few things that i can muster up at 2am in the morning (and from sleep deprivation) so you can take my advice or not.........afterall it is free and i don't guarantee that it will make your life better.................maybe just a little more bearable (in knowing that compared to me you are perfectly sane)................